Part II
The next five years I spent studying among my brothers and sisters in a hidden temple, learning the sacred tenets of our Mother and recognizing my venerable purpose in Her service. The temple, a sanctuary from the hazards of the insatiable desert and the stifling oppression of Man's world, had been built in a majestic oasis, protectively nestled between two large mountains. The natural cracks and surrounding weathered rock formations bore a striking resemblance to elegant female legs and feet, a clear manifestation of our Mother, and a not-so-subtle reminder that while Her shadow may shield us from the world, we are servants to Her will, owing our lives to Her grace. I knew peace for the first time. No longer would I need to fend off hunger or steal from others to survive. And my peace lasted for a time.
I praised Néshara with every waking moment, thankful for Her divine intervention. Spending most of my days in silent contemplation, I often reflected on my former life. Although my actions appeared unseemly to some, I accepted they were borne of desperation, vengeance, and the rash reactions of youth. However, I began to acknowledge Néshara's role in my life, past and present. Certainly, many did not survive infancy or their first few years, especially for those born and raised without sufficient shelter, nourishment, or care. My mother had sacrificed her health and life so I might thrive in those conditions. Her gift was Néshara's gift—a mother's love. In addition, my response to her death had been influenced by Néshara, for She knew of the unforgivable crimes against my mother. Moreover, our most holy of laws decrees any harmful act against a female, whether in body or mind, is punishable by death. In our eyes, the female form is the earthly representation of Néshara, and must always be honored. Therefore, these men not only harmed my mother, they defiled our Mother. While my mother's death ensured my life, her sacrifice needed balance, and the long-unanswered crimes of rape and betrayal needed a willing advocate for Her will, so I unknowingly became Her hand in my unquenchable desire for revenge.
With increasing clarity and a calm heart, I accepted my duty and pledged an oath to be Her agent in this world. Not long after my decision, the Order of The Mother's Last Embrace, a shadow sect within the temple, witnessed my dedication, determined my worth through additional trials in my daily lessons, and recruited me into their ranks. Their training proved arduous and more challenging than any I had ever experienced. Over the course of many months, I endured more than the other recruits. I survived poisons, beatings, drownings, stabbings, and being bound to a pole, exposed to the desert for countless days. Keeping Néshara foremost in my thoughts, I persevered while others crumbled beneath our trainer's hands, some renouncing our Mother. Their deaths came quickly once the words left their mouths. My trainers eventually yielded to my unwavering faith, embracing me as their brother. Then the real challenge began as my trainers honed my skills of stealth and guile, transforming me from mere street thief to Néshara's swift hand of justice, Her knife in the dark.
For years, I served our Mother, eliminating those who stood against Her. I became a favorite of the High Matron, who would call on me for the more demanding tasks, whether it be a particularly sensitive target, a ruthless enemy, a crafty rival, or satisfying her in bed. I obeyed her assignments as if our Mother spoke them directly into my ear. Nobles, merchants, thieves, murderers, and cult leaders silently fell before me. The High Matron's moans of pleasure quenched both my base sexual desires and fulfilled my oath of service, appeasing Néshara through my devotion.
While enemies filled my nights, my days consisted less of silent study and more of discussion with my peers, Ra'if chief among them. We often pondered our Mother's teachings as we completed our daily assignments. Although Ra'if and I belonged to the same order, he was more a scholar, than an assassin, deadlier with the pen than I with the blade. Recording the names of Néshara's dead enemies, he chronicled our history. He also translated a variety of ancient texts, ranging from forgotten philosophies and scriptures of our faith to those of lost civilizations. We bonded over our dedication to our service, and the crucial, albeit controversial, belief that our service came by choice, rather than by Néshara's divine will. For Ra'if and myself, service from free will offered an unshakable affection and allegiance to our Mother, one that could only be gained through loyalty, and could never be replicated through forceful obedience. However, many of our sisters, the High Matron among them, believed this to be heresy. Women were made in Néshara's image. Being men made us inferior. I could never accept this, but I was content. And my contentment lasted for a time.
My last assignment came from the High Matron. A younger priestess had threatened her position, conspiring with enemies of Néshara to kill the High Matron. I knew what this meant, killing a woman, especially a priestess of Néshara. My life would be forfeit after I completed my charge. Nonetheless, I did as I was bid. Sneaking into her room late that night, I found the priestess sleeping peacefully in her bed. So young, I thought, and so gorgeous. Serene in her slumber, why would she try to kill our Holy Matron—she who is Néshara made flesh? I moved forward, steeling myself for what must be done. Truly Néshara has blessed her, for I have never seen such beauty. And then, a voice spoke to me. “She is not to die, Ja'Qim.” I spun, but no one was there besides myself and the priestess. “Look closer, my child.” I examined the room carefully, my eyes drawn inextricably to the nightstand. A rose and a note from a suitor lay gently upon its surface. I read the name of the suitor and froze. “Yes, Ja'Qim. He is the one your High Matron has had her eye on for some time. I did not speak this young one's name. She is pure.” Breathing heavy, I left the room in a state of shock. Not only had I been betrayed, but I heard Her speak to me. I knew not what to think. Néshara only spoke to the High Matron . . . and never to men. Did She speak to me, or have I gone mad?
Ra'if found me sometime later to inquire about my target, and reluctantly, I informed him of my failure. I told him the High Matron intended for me to kill her romantic rival, and once the priestess had been dealt with, I would be killed immediately without any inquiry into the matter. He closed his eyes, and I thought for a moment he would turn me over to the order for punishment. Instead, he told me about his suspicions over the past year. Ra'if believed the High Matron was using her station at her own whims, exerting her power to eliminate those who spoke out against her, solidifying her authority and gaining vast quantities of wealth.
Without waiting to hear the rest, I foolishly stormed off to confront the High Matron. She was not in her chambers, but her attendants informed me she had been called to an emergency meeting with the other Matrons and should not be disturbed. Ignoring the guards at the doors to the council's meeting, I burst through the doors and shouted, “You dare defy our Mother with your own personal agenda?” The High Matron stood to object, and the guards attempted to seize me, but I sprinted ahead, drawing my dagger. “She was innocent! You dishonor your station and our Mother. Why?”
She glared at me. “I am not the one whose honor is in question, Ja'Qim,” she said smoothly, eying the dagger. “You interrupt a closed session and dare bear a blade against me?”
“I am not your pawn!” I lunged forward, but she slipped out of my way. In one fluid motion, she used my momentum against me, twisting my arm and pinning me to the ground.
She leaned forward, pressing her weight against me. My arm popped, and I groaned, losing hold of my dagger. “You should have killed her, Ja'Qim. I might have been lenient in your punishment,” she whispered. “Now I will enjoy drawing out your death.” She motioned for the guards, who took me away.
Days passed. I had been subjected to a deeper, more profound level of pain than ever before. The High Matron delighted in torturing me, prolonging my pain, killing me, and then bringing me back. I had failed, and she had won. Even worse I had failed Néshara. But before despair completely took me, I heard muffled sounds from my jailers and saw the cell door open. Ra'if quickly entered and unlocked me from the manacles. Calling me a fool and a few choice words, he helped me out of the cell. I recall little after that as I kept slipping in and out of consciousness, but some distant part of me knew that Néshara had not abandoned me. I could almost hear Her humming to me softly, like my mother did when I was a child.
More days passed. We fled the temple and the land we knew, getting as far away as possible. As I gained my strength back, I asked Ra'if how he had managed to free me. Looking back toward the way we had come, he told me others had helped in my escape, but trailed off before he finished. I winced and said a quick prayer, knowing they were with our Mother now. I wanted to return, to strike against the High Matron, and to wrest control of the temple from her corrupt hands. But the thought was completely absurd. We would never stand a chance, at least not now.
Soon we found ourselves in a foreign land, short on supplies, and out of gold. Finding gainful employment proved difficult. However, we eventually joined a band of mercenaries, hoping we could earn enough gold to sustain ourselves in the days to come. And that worked for a time.
End Part II; Let the campaign begin!